it's okay, nga ada yg keberatan khan? anyway, gue sebenernya nga punya ide nulis. cuman berhubung sang pacar bobo dengan cepat karena kecapean. and gue seminggu ini lumayan santai. gue pikir bolehlah nulis sesuatu yang nga pernah kepikiran, atau selalu kepikiran?
hmm... talk about apa yah..? talk about pacar deeeh.. biarin yg baca pada jealous and bosan liatin gue yang in love melulu. hahaha.
umur pacaran udah 10 bulan ++. Bumbu2 pacaran kebanyakan datang dari diri masing2 and we thank God, we still on fire, nga bosen, keep communicate about everything, stick with out commitment, keep loving each other, and planning about future.
Semakin lama semakin sadar seh gue punya perbedaan besar sama Ys. Soal temperamen, dia melankolis, gue sanguin. kalo lagi cerita, gue bisa panjang lebar nga habis2, bisa 1 jam nga kelar deskripsiin ini itu, tapi kalo dia cerita, udah terangkum dengan kalimat padat. hahaha. nga pake bumbu2 bahasa.
Soal hobi, hhhhmm.. gue suka travel dia kaga. bahkan pernah ada temen yang bilang Ys nga suka apa2, cuman suka erni. *blush* hahaha. sebenernya agak heran seh, bisa yah nga punya hobi. haha. that's my man.
Anyway semakin kenal Ys, gue kadang2 takut, I afraid can't make him happy. He had a lot of burden, terutama dalam kerjaan. and ditambah dia melan. kalo dia lagi ada stress, dia akan pendem dulu, sampe udah mau beres, atau udah better baru cerita. sedangkan gueeeee.. gue khan sanguin yah.. sering nga peka, sering sotoyyy.. gue pikir.... he can do it, he can pass this, I don't have to worried. Good point nya gue bisa lebih netral, nga ikutan mellow. Bad point nyaaaaa, bahasa kasih dia words of affirmation, yang dimana gue nga pinter ngomong kalo soal encouragement. yang muncul malah advice, or assumption, or try to praise him so he's not down. sering banget gue nga bisa support dia. That's why I'm afraid. Am I the right person for him? Harus nya bisa di latih dan di pelajari seh. mungkin gue perlu kuliah psikologi kali yah. God will provide the words kalo gue deket sama Dia, gue harus bener2 benerin HPDT gue.
What of him that's make me happy? just looking his face is make me happy. hahaha.. *jangan ketawa*.
sehari sebelum ultah kemaren, dia tanya mau dikasi kado apa. gue dari awal udah bilang, jgn kasi apa2. gue nga tahu mau apa. kalo emang ada mau sesuatu gue akan bilang. trus dia masih bujuk2 gue supaya gue request and gue cuman liatin muka dia, and gue bilang "liatin muka elo aja udah cukup" *jangan muntah yeee* dia cuman ketawa2. and ngeledek gue "aaah.. nanti 5 thn lagi.. kalo minta nya udah macem2, gue akan bilang , katanya liatin muka aja udah cukup " wkwkwkw... #dipastikan gue nga bisa LDR# hahaha.
the most happiest thing about him is, he smile. seriusssss.. dia pelit senyum, padahal sama pacar sendiri.
mungkin karena dia pelit, jadi kalo liat dia senyum, gue seneng. and kadang2 yang bikin dia senyum itu bukan gue. sometimes gue butuh temen2 dia yang lebih attractive, humoris and lively. supaya bikin dia bisa senyum or ketawa2. hehehe.. kalo dipikir2 gue sama dia jarang ketawa bareng (apalagi ketawa kenceng2). Tapi kalo udah liat dia senyum, pasti gue meleleh.
Sebenernya banyak hal dari dia yang bikin gue seneng. He's working hard for his goal, and for his family, walaupun proses nya masih panjang. He love God more than me. He trust me. Long way to go, we still need love check-up, do we walk in HIS path? do we makes HIS purpose to be done?
2 jam gue nulis, cmn dapet segini. haha. otak gue emank lelet and muter2. udah ah. gue ngantuk
Dear Lord,
Thank you for this relationship, I knew we are sinfully human, we are not perfect even though we try to make it perfect. Try us Lord, so we can be more stronger in this world. Let us know, if we are design to be live together or not. We only plan, You the one that will execute our future. And last, let us loving You more than loving each other. Amin
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